My shadow self is amplified.
It’s protection maybe, for my core.
My motivation is the ample doubt in me.
Revolving, whirling places, people, faces, masks and tastes of things of this and that shape me. I am this and that. We are this and that.
I wear myself gaping and jolting. I give humanity my breath.
“Here take me world, eat me up in pieces. Dismantle my core, devour me. I need you to.”
I’m learning, everyday. I’m yearning, everyday.
Here’s me, bathing in fire. It’s my trial, it’s my way.
Take me away.
Walk away.
Leave me here, you know I’ll stay. I’m always here.
Here’s me, screaming as usual.
Isolation, meditation, conversation, mediation, frustration, creation, temptation, convolution, adoration, irritation, moderation, habituation, animation, contortion, expedition, gravitation, levitation, transportation, condensation, admiration, destination, complication.
Not fatalistic, I’m realistic.
No, I’m not depressed and don’t ask me again. Don’t be so quick to dig into what you think I am.
Here’s me, singing.
Be careful, I’m on the outside. I’m here, you see me? I’m on my own skin. I’m on the stage and dancing, right here.
This is me.
Here’s me, speaking to you, asking you the why’s and how’s. Here’s me needing you. Here’s me looking to you.
Here’s me on the floor. I’m not crying, I’m sleeping.
Here’s me exhausted.
Who’s going to take me home and hold me?
Here’s me wondering?
Here’s my mother and father. Here’s my friends, humming their skin, their hearts, their breath.
Here’s me confused. Here’s me drinking. You love me to death. You’re scared of me but you still face me.
Here’s me reacting to you being vague.
Here’s a Midwestern girl. Here’s a polka dot skirt and perfume.
Here’s you breathing me. You breathe me. You hate me.
Here’s me smiling. Watching you move. You move. You touch me, you’re fingertips are cool on my neck.
Here’s me being kissed. Watch me kiss back. Here’s me euphoric. My heart sings in the dark. Here’s me lost in the dark, here’s me touching you to find my way.
I found my way and I do believe that we rely on each other.
Here’s me wondering when I’ll really know how to let it all go.
Here’s me raw. Here’s me naked. Here’s me whole.
I won’t conceal it. That’s not me.
I’m going to sing it out, possibly unintelligible.
Here’s you wondering what I meant by all of this.
= ) <——————— Here’s me.
